comel x? when she was born…her eyes were already open…below are her details…
name: nur qhadija binti mohd hafiz syazwan
age: 14 hours
p.o.b:hosp putrajaya
d.o.b: 05.07.09
blood: O
agfa score: 8/9
weight: 3.23kg
hmmm….thats all i can remember….05.08.09…she is already 4.02 kg…height 42cm….next chekup on 02.09.09….feels as if she is growing fast….
she looks different now doesnt she?compare both pics…..
let me give u a clue….
“im now sitting in front of the computer…with messy hair, tired eyes…and the giveaway…have my baby balanced on my lap…having her supper tucked under my arms quietly while im typing away….”
got the idea?
the first 3 weeks of motherhood was soooooo challenging..i broke down a few times…with the strong support of my loving hubby n mother…i stood up again…well..not quite ’stood up’…more to ’sat up’…
being a new mother…i had no knowledge of nursing…my mom helped bath qhadija….but the most challenging part was learning to confidently breastfeed and bond with the child….after a 14hours of fighting my contractions, i was exhausted…and i wasnt ready to feel the pain of breastfeeding….’it’ was bleeding and sore…a week after, it tore in half….but as you know…the baby is always hungry and want milk no matter what….so i was forced to breastfeed…
day 2…i cried coz my baby wanted milk every 2 hours…i needed sleep but didnt have the oppertunity to rest…the pain of stitches is still burning…2 hours went by so swiftly and i was forced to endure the pain and face the trauma on my own….i was the only one capable of feeding her…no one else…so the fight was on…fighting my pain, grudge,and hatred towards this small creature who always cries, and gives me pain with pure guilt….at this moment..i understood the feeling and why some mothers throw away thier newborn child without mercy….its hard to be a new mother wthout support from husband, family, friends and community….it can drive you insane…..
day 3…..my milk factory swelled up into gigantic coconuts…it hurts….was hard and sore….lying down on the matress, i was trying hard and frantically to feed my baby…but she couldnt get it in her mouth…..she was very hungry and crying out loud….i felt i was a bad mother and the world was harsh until 2 angels came….the community nurses came over to check on me and the baby….they gave me confidence and taught me alot of precious knowledge..they helped me reduce my pain and gain my confidence….only then i knew…what i was feeling..the pressure…the guilt was only too normal…and 1 bad news….qhadija had the yellows….and thus…i was forced to endure my pain and bring her to the clinic that evening…..
day 4 - 14……everday trips to the clinic…qhadija had a reading of 200+……but slowly it reduced…..i was getting used to the night wakups and little rest…i was getting better too and more confident on my own….i had already took over my moms task of bathing my baby…..since the angels came to see me…i see something more into my baby’s eyes and hear more to her cries of needs….i see with affection…love…and passion…..
week5….qhadija has heled from the yellows…but vormitted blood that night…got into nicu at putrajaya hosp…..got my whole family panicking…i was praying that my baby was safe…the next day….with relief….my baby was discharged and stated as a healthy baby…the blood? it was from my torn milk factory….her body couldnt digest my blood in large quantities.. i was adviced to give it a rest for a few days from feeding until it healed and the bleeding stopped…..
week6…it doesnt hurt as much now during feeding…..im so relieved….alhamdulillah…..im getting stronger to face everyday challenges….im more matured and healing…..
week 7…here i am…..my baby is getting restless…she has the hiccups…donno why she always has it….im at bangi since yesterday..my mother in laws house….my mother is calling everyday to hear qhadija’s voice…hehe…cucu pertama… 
the love of both mine and hubby’s family….we are both the eldest sone and daughter….in 2 weeks i start my work….so ive starting to study to teachmy form2 and 4 students and hack my brains creating test papers to test them before the finalyear exam starts…..i love my students….i love my job….if only they knew that…:Phehe
k…qhadija is kicking away already sucking on her mittens..shes tall,brave and strong like her father…very intelligent and bright…love sounds and looking at moving objects….hope she grows up into a lady i’ll be very proud of one day….oh..she’s smiling at me…..looking into my eyes with her big round eyes and making baby sounds…sooo cute and adorable….its seems she’s trying to say i love you mama…this it it…..im signing off to change her diapers….selamat berpuasa friends…..hope your life is getting better like me….
=D tata~
2 weeks holiday n im enjoying it in boredom…..me alone and the tv… do a little of house chores but hmmmm…. cant stand up straight for long…lucky to have an understanding hubby…..
my sis just flew back to her fearful indonesia 2days ago…she cant wait to finish her studies.. she goes on and on how indonesians are racist and treat malaysians badly….how her lecturers seem to dislike malaysians and her indonesians friends can see how different they are being treated….its unhappy to know this considering how nice malaysians treat indonesians here in malaysia…i have made friends with alot of indonesians here and they say how nice people in Malaysia are….Maybe coz Malaysia is a multi race country, we have been taught to tolerate and respect each other from different race and background since small….i feel bad for my little sis…just want her to be happy….all i can do now is pray for her to finish her studies quickly and live happily here in Malaysia….
next week start work again….ive become a bit hot tempered since im pregnant…i realise how impatient i can become….i cant blame myself entirely coz just imagine…. during my free hours…im rushing to mark my students books/eat/maintain computer lab/assess students SPM projects…when the bell rings…im dragging my balloon body up the stairs since my mathematic classes are all on the top floor..when i arrive…im greeted by a noisy classroom…i feel angry all of a sudden and sad…just dont understand why form2 students now dont respect a teacher in class….when i was form 2….we all went silent when a teacher enters a class as a sign of respect….zaman dulu lain dari zaman skang……why is it like this???is malaysia becoming a nation where respect is lost in our hearts for the elderly?….
in 3 weeks i’ll be delivering my baby girl….how will she look like? hope she will be an adorable healthy little thing….im trying to teach her ‘lailahaillallah’ in the womb….just read that if we teach this to a small child, InsyaAllah.. the parents would easily have a chance to go to heaven…amin…just noticed that she also might like my hubby’s hands…why? coz when she’s kicking my belly playing around, she kicks harder when i cover her with my hands, but when my hubby covers his hands…she quietly goes back to sleep….magic..hehe
k..the next time i blog..my baby is already out….hope so.. pray for my safety and my baby’s…see ya all…
ni tengah duk ngan faiezah n shara kat meja….. buat kje… sambil2 tu tengah online n berborak..haha…..tunggu cikgu2 n lambat sket wat kje….penat lak… kena tunggu sampai kol2….lapar pun ada ni…huhu…..pening gak system SAP ni…HEADcount pun sama….
semalam pi checkup…baby berat dari usia….patutlah rasa mengah n sakit2… memang seksa bawak laptop masa kat kursus….. tahan jelah…..xtau bila baby ni nak kluar… ni minggu ke 33….tengok documentary semalam minggu 38-42 baru bersalin..so ada beberapa minggu lagi….k…tu je…. nak sambung kje..bye2….
*faiezah….focusnya..hehe…macam nak amik exam….
kawan2 IT pendidikan..aku ngan zaiti pi sama2…..korang ada x kena pi? lega ada geng….nampaknya ni dugaan pertama pi jauh2 dari suami ngan peruit boyot…skang ni yg xleh bayangkan camner nak mengangkut beg baju n laptop..biasanya suami yg angkat…harap2 xjauhler kena berjalanler….
see you there!
days go by very fast…im busy with work as a school teacher 50% liking it…..20% bored with it…and the other are all my ‘………..’ feelings……..walking and climbing up stairs until the top floor at school has got me healthier but tired….juz scanned 2days ago and im getting a girl!!:) good news for my hubby coz he loves to ask baby girls to kiss him on his cheek and also good news to my bro who always wanted a niece…maybe also good news for me coz i wont have to deal with the naughtiness of a boy for my first baby…(maybe thats why ive been so eager looking at girly toys and clothes since 2months pregnant…hmmmm)well..last week was my first official week that im wearing maternity dress to school which my students like seeing me in….they say i look cuter..haha….my baby grown bigger overnight it seems coz suddenly all my baju kurung seems to choke my tummy all of a sudden….my tummy is bigger and rounder for sure…..even my hubby is shocked….
hows school? i love the attention i get from my students..but i also am not too keen on the boys who just dont respect a teacher teaching infront or students who dont want to learn….yep..they are from back classes…eating chewing gum,throwing dustbins and paperballs around is a common scene in 2 neptune…huh…..just hate the monkeys in that class….if only each class has their own giant cage to lock those terrors in them when im teaching…and maybe a sound proof glass along withit to drown out any monkey sounds..haha…a job of a teacher never ends…im always with marking books or studying or on school errants or keying in students data…..aaah!and who said being a teacher wasnt stressfull? but i do prefer this compared to being a programmer… aslong my students adore me i feel appreciated and that keeps me going…i even recieved a gift and card for my birthday:)not forgetting my class sang happy birthday in class to me…thats so sweet….love my 2 utarid…oh yes…thanks so much to friends who wished my birthday..its been so long i havent got a chance to open friendster….the school doesnt have a wifi(duh..donno why)….so im at my hubbies parents house now typing….maybe when i get my salary i’ll insert streamyx or something….
ok….hope u all are ok n happier..i am…got tons of pics to show here but dont have the chance…huu…..k…taker…..c ya
im eating rice now…still dont like it that much…but thats the only thing that keeps me unhungry when my gastric attacks…my tummy is bigger and i sometimes feel somthing like gas or muscle movements…dont know if its the baby kicking away or not…tomorrow im having my checkup and scan…hope my babies healthy..im healthier and happier…cant wait for my trip to langkawi island in 2 weeks…huhu…my parents just told me that they forbid me to go squid fishing….waaaaaa…….I WANTO GO SO BADLY….they said they just rented a boat for rm500 and will fish squids in the night….i cant go coz its dangerous for pregnant women to be somewhere full of syaitans and iblis…yup..im scared for my baby’s safety, and my husband also forbids me having fun and going along coz he heard that a pregnant women found out her baby went missing from her womb in places like that….so…it seems i’ll be unhappy and lonely in the apartment for a while….hope they catch a lot of squids….i wanto eat tonz of roasted squids to make me happy……
i just moved into my new home… im living with my hubby…at first..it took some uncomfortable moments getting used to it…but yesterday my dad came over and fixed things up (im glad i have a handy man father)…and now i have a filter (clean drinking water…!!hooray), my water heater is functioning and my door knob is working….so this morning…things seem to be working fine with me…i think i am a bit spoilt on some reasons…i just love to live somewhere where im comfortable…well..it doesnt need to be a mansion…just somewhere where i feel my needs are attended to….
i love my teaching life and being a teacher….the workload is a lot…im a form teacher for 2 UTARID and have a lot of stuff to write and type for each student..a coordinator of the school wellfare and scholarship committee…a member of the school computer committee….im a yellow house teacher, badminton teacher and into fire brigade uniform club… im teaching 7 form 2 classes ICTL, form 4 ICT and a class maths…. so far the workload hasnt bothered me coz i love the drama during my teacherhood at school…hope next year i dont get something i dont like and get frustrated with it….:)
im going to move out next week into my new rented home….in section 26…not far away from my parents home in section 27 shah alam….we took 3 days to move in…next saturday the fridge and washing machine will arrive and on sunday the furnitures will arrive too…then starts my life living away from my parents and alone with my hubby…..its exciting and a bit worrying…. being in section 26, i will nearer to my workplace in USJ 23….the best thing bout this route is there is no traffic jam…just 2 traffic lights….
a lot has happened lately….my room upstairs in my parents home was flooded….felt like the jumanji movie once ago of the monsoon season….rats had bitten a big hole in the main tank pipe…it was like a sign they wanted us out…huhu….i was like “oh no! my electric goods that i just bought”..all i wanted was to save my 2 handset chargers, olympus camera charger,my laptop charger, radio, iron, laptop and everything else that was sitting on the floor needed to be saved…when i went to shut off the main electric switch and my mom went to close the main water pipe, i was praying that my laptop was ok…. when i finally went in…i was so glad my hubby put my laptop safely on a high place….the others were smimming so i had to unplug and lay them out to dry in the sun…..2 days after..i finally tried them all.. and they were all working…..i so glad everything was ok….just had to clean up the mess….
since my status changed to married… im much happier coz i have a best friend everyday…reminds me of a song ‘im lucky to be inlove with my best friend’..or something like that….im always looking forward to something new in my marriage life….and im also tide up now….i dont often see friends anymore…either im at home….or out and about on errants/work or dating with my hubby…life has certainly changed for me….im 4 months pregnant already….feel stronger and my morning sickness has gone 80%….my belly is bulging and unhidable…hehe….my hubby dreamt of us having a baby boy that looks like him last 2 nights…its cute….hope we do….but i also dont mind if i get a baby girl….
well..thats all the update for now….donno when ill blog again…next month were going to langkawi island, my family and hubby by flight…its the 1st time my hubby gets an oppertunity to ride a plane…he’s excited….hehe..
sweets..candy…sugar…
-dilemma kencing manis….
selalu dengar orang kata sal wanita mengandung ada risiko kencing manis….walaupun aku xder sejarah penyakit ni dalam family….tapi tabiat aku kebelakangan ni merunsingkan….
setiap ari..aku mesti
makan benda manis…mungkin sbb xdapat nak makan seperti orang biasa….gula2 dah jadi makanan idaman….bukan mengidam..tp dah xtau nak telan apa..apabila asyik dihantui dengan muntah2/sakit perut/cirit birit..bila makan gula2..rasa lega n sedikit happy….mentos n 1 tin gula2 fox menghiasi meja dalam bilikku di bangi…di shah alam, penuh ngan cookie n coklat snickers….semalam dah pow 4 mini mentos n 3 biji gula2 fox untuk makan malam
….tambah lagi minum air ribena….pagi ni…dah makan 1 mini mentos n 10 biji gula2 gummy sebagai breakfast, air ribena lagi…. n xrasa muak pon ngan tahap pengambilan gula yg tinggi ni.dulu aku xsuka pun manis2 ni….klau ikutkan..leh lagi hisap beberapa biji gula fox skang ni……kenapa ngan aku ni????? risaunya….aku risau betul terkena kencing manis klau tabiat ni masih berterusan….
sweets..candy…sugar…
-dilemma kencing manis….
selalu dengar orang kata sal wanita mengandung ada risiko kencing manis….walaupun aku xder sejarah penyakit ni dalam family….tapi tabiat aku kebelakangan ni merunsingkan….
setiap ari..aku mesti
makan benda manis…mungkin sbb xdapat nak makan seperti orang biasa….gula2 dah jadi makanan idaman….bukan mengidam..tp dah xtau nak telan apa..apabila asyik dihantui dengan muntah2/sakit perut/cirit birit..bila makan gula2..rasa lega n sedikit happy….mentos n 1 tin gula2 fox menghiasi meja dalam bilikku di bangi…di shah alam, penuh ngan cookie n coklat snickers….semalam dah pow 4 mini mentos n 3 biji gula2 fox untuk makan malam
….tambah lagi minum air ribena….pagi ni…dah makan 1 mini mentos n 10 biji gula2 gummy sebagai breakfast, air ribena lagi…. n xrasa muak pon ngan tahap pengambilan gula yg tinggi ni.dulu aku xsuka pun manis2 ni….klau ikutkan..leh lagi hisap beberapa biji gula fox skang ni……kenapa ngan aku ni????? risaunya….aku risau betul terkena kencing manis klau tabiat ni masih berterusan….
