TeeMs~Journal

dear diary…

this week… a lot happened but i forgot to jot down… last sunday went out with ita…went to carrefour…she treated me lamb chop from kenny rodgers..its was so tasty!.. thinkin of treatin my family at the end of this week..she stayed over my house for two nights… along with that, i tried to help her out with the system she was doing…

ibu came back tuesday evening from indonesia..it seems my sis has got slimmer…hehe… but gained weight when my mom kept cookin for her… she’s got a boyfriend already..how quick my little sis has grown up..she keeps nagging me that she wants to become an auntie….huhu..i cant promise anything though…its up to the man i love or will love to take my hand in marriage…i just hope im not hoping in vain….

yesterday night, lepak on my parents bed like usual..in my family, its normal for all 5 members of my family to lie down together on one bed and tease each other.maybe i can say we are those close type.. to make the story..my dad,suddenly snickered,sat up and said…"bet you kakak!i smell a new hanphone"…i was suprised…rupanya… my bro bought a new hanphone which was more expensive than mine! the nokia slide one…hehe…but i dont mind… coz i like my new sony ericson..

my bro is going for his convocation this weekend in utm skudai… wanted to go too..but, only 2 people are allowed in during the event(my mom and dad for sure)..so i wont be going..huhu…

my house loan wid ambank has been approved… im not sure when i’ll start paying…but i have to start saving now… sometimes seeing the people around me buy this and that makes me jelouse and want one too… but, i have to be patient,remember and keep in mind..that, they are the group of people without future planning and investment..what i am doing now for my future is the right thing!

my friend just told me that her boy cheated her for 2 years…he was seeing two girls at once?? i really felt sorry for her… i hate betrayals.. she must be very sad… i just can pray she’ll be ok… if your reading this..hope you know that if you want a friend to talk to…im here for u….

you know…when i open my blog… sometimes i check the comments part, and mostly its (0)….. but then.. im still flattered, that…. still many of my friends care to check out my blog to know what im going through…they will start replying through sms/ym/calls… eventhough im far away from my friends.. still… im still a part of thier life and thoughts thank you.. you make me feel cared and important somehow….

another thing.. im confused bout my heart…. let me write a poem about it below:

Scarlet drops of tears stain the bedside sheets..
Memories fill the starlight goblet..
Blissful moments are then cherished so deep..
with a wift of confusion to mingle in it..

Finding your prince is an utter adventure..
You just dont know whats best to seek..
In your prince you seek to conquer..
A tangle of bold, stability and the weak..

Life as it is is an utter confusion..
Where beauties are found by prince and beast..
For a damsel to understand the inner situation..
She’ll have to understand her desires at least..

I understand that looks are important for a man..
But is it the same importance for ladies too?
What are the main criteria to find the one?
that will bring advantage in life to you?

My heart is tied up intimidately to one soul..
A soul that im not sure will be mine..
God plays mysteriuosly in acheiving our goal..
In making your heart and dreams devine..

I really dont understand if what i want is right..
or the opposite consequences of the open gate..
but im bold and ready to give a hopefull fight..
to gain my hope until im defeated by fate..

i like : my mom caring me, my dad when he laughs, my bro and sis when theyre not buggers,bunga kekwa (not a good gardener though),pink,stricking green,black, red,poetry, sketching, josh grobans sexy voice,dimples on a guy, a sweet smile, a sweet greeting, cute notes, quotations, nature, animals with fur, water, coffee, my lovin friends,  roller coasters, night light scenes, pictures, plays…