TeeMs~Journal

My life is the same… nothing unusual…. ive resigned from my old company for exactly 2 weeks. decided to do that coz i got bored with work with no programming. no challenge lah. x minat…having this holiday wasnt wasted though… i used it all up necessarily…relaxation and learning….yahoo

last week started a system that someone wanted me to help develope. yes! wid the galore, i learnt a new programming language PHP and also credits to sifu ita and my friends source code.. i think im doing good.. and being me.. i can program in front of the computer from 8am in the morning till 2am non-stop! thats how much i like programming.nerd? yup! a computer nerd..hahahahaha

got several interviews… my estimation i’ll be planting anggur for another 2 weeks.. but i dont mind really, as long as i got a system to develop, im never bored. :) 

At this time of after graduate life..actually, i dont feel anything… i dont feel at all that its better or not from my student life, coz… its still a challenge i have to go through and its all teh same… learning new things, adapting, getting to know people, making mistakes, loving and hating…  i still feel im a student…coz i want to learn so much, but after student life…its luck if you get someone to guide you….

My bibik maid will be off to indon next month. will miss her…. having someone to talk to when youre at home and have a busy family is a nice thing. but im not complaining… my family is first and abah work till night and ibu rushing here there coz they want a future for me…

sometimes i pity my mother, so old, yet so much she want to provide for her kids… i wonder if i ever be like my mom???why i say my mom is a super women?

1. she can cook all kinds of dishes without a recipe written or printed down

2.she can clean the whole house in a day

3. sangat2 rajin

4. genious in understaning and storing things in her brain,

5.remembers and does house chores, pays the bills,

6.take care of her kids, she resigned from work twice for my brothers education, she learnt chemistry just to teach me for spm!

7.she is a religious women, wakes up at 4am in the morning to solat sunat tahajud,hajat,read quran… she solat sunat dhuha nearly everday… she prays hajat for me in the middle of the night everytime i hope for goodluck to happen.

8. she’s very generous, always giving, thinks of others unfortunate than her and advicing everyone to be good…

9.  she has a ACCA professional accountant degree…. and is so hard working!

10. she always forgives me! yep.. im a terrible kid.. i admit it…huhuhuhu…but she never pilih kasih aming her 3 kids.. she loves us all equally and i really love my mom for being a super women!…

11. guess no one believes me if i tell them that i love kissing, hugging and touching my mom all over.. im not lesbian! its a sign i really adore her..:) she is the only person on this planet who i 100% trust that she’ll help me get back on my feet when no one could…Im very2 lucky…

IBU! I LOVE U SO MUCH…

‘my piece of writing here is a spark from a tv show i watched yesterday night, bout our right hemisphere is another person who’s say is always ignored by the dominent left hemiphere of the brain..the right brain is more emotional, potrays who we really are and the left is more on logic…well,according to the story..this pregnant lady had both brains which were dominent, and by an experiment, the right hemisphere showed that the baby she carried made her angry..’

By my theory, our childhood potrays the say of our right brain… at that time, we didnt need much logic from the left brain…we acted based on emotions and slight logic…maybe thats why we went through a series of mistakes and bloody knees before we learned that climbing trees was dangerous..

Ive always loved writing since my childhood… Ive always loved to explore… read interesting books that will motivate me and show me a new life…. Ive always loved being curious and experiment with my own mistakes…I loved getting bloody knees and fall of my bike until i got to know how to ride it on my own… i was a brave girl who fought with bullies and loved art so much!Ive always loved to have close friends and share friendship bracelets and secrets of our dreams without getting judged about it….I always loved showing that i can do anything otehrs can do…(according to my dearest mother, she said that the teachers thought of me as a naughty child with an smart brain)…but anyway… loved my childhood life thanks to my dearest mom who always cleaned up my mess..hehe…..

Being a grown up for some people is a bliss… no grownup to scold u, no one to tell you what to do, you lead your own life….

but i dont think im one of those people you see…

Im a person born under the february star, and a february child tend to be rebelious and loves freedom…february people are traped with two personalities.we tend to be a mixture of albert einstein and picasso….a mixture of logic and art…..i read this from a source and compared them with my february friends…and yup..most of them think like me and we tend to click easily…

in my family…im always adviced if ive done something wrong by my parents and at the same time, they show me how a grown up should behave…the learning never stops… sometimes, if youre never adviced or told that what youre doing is wrong…you’ll never know and keep doing it over and over again! its true…. (by experience) like my mother keep reminding me… "avoid mistakes when you can overcome them, its a risk and a waste of time"……

having a mom that realy cares and full with wise advice is important…so as a reminder to myself and my female and male friends… never ever give up caring for our kids until the day we say goodbye to them in our graves…because…the love we show them until then…makes a very big difference in how they live their life….

a.m.i.n.