waaa…tomorrow ada kelas ganti..boring tol…semalam baru dapat another project for freelancing..developing a system for this company..pi bincang kat kedai india ni n the clients were very friendly… jap je dah borak macam2… got 2 weeks to deliver the system..i feel i can deliver the system in 1 week, but becuse i have to modify a system, i will never know what dugaan n cabaran i will encounter when i meddle with other programmers existing system….huhu
exam is over and ive already marked all d maths paper..exam was going on for 3 days…masuk kelas n supervise the kids je…liked it coz didnt need to perah otak before class…just had to tegur the kids who were trying to spoil the class.. teaching is easy for me.. but not for some… two intern teachers from uitm taking testle just came by.. they were bothered with teaching though coz they didnt know how to control the class especially boys from back classes..made me wonder why they wanted to become a teacher in the first place.. i never had problems teaching coz thats what ive been doing since primary school..teaching my friends and being taught by them…
im not saying the kids are goody two shoes either… as you know,classes have 2 doors.. i had the experience chasing kids from the front to the back door and vice versa..shouting till my lungs hurt.. chasing kids away from loitering infront of my class.. ive also had experience being fooled by one of the naughty kids and only god know how angry i was in class, just now the kid apologised so im glad he did that..kids are kids… but..really, i enjoy the drama…the kids can be really naughty and witty some other times… i just assume they are my little brothers and sisters, and at times my daughter and son(eventhough im not married) terhibur sangat ngan gelagat drg…the smiling faces of othr kids always makes me happy again after a tiring day teaching…
I just read this post from my dear liverpool playmate jasmin…its hillarious u know..she’s so excited bout getting an interview for a job other than teaching… and me?the opposite…jasmin, hope u get a taste of ur dreams.. getting into magazines is a totally new experience..just hope the politics dont ware u down..
1.my bro sambung degree today…adalah rasa sket that im going to miss him..what has happened to me?….huhu..
2.next week my bibik that im fond of has finished her contract and leaving for indon…i’ll miss her too…but i dont like comin home to an empty house for gods sake…waaaaaa
3.alhamdulillah,syukur pada Allah… rezeki my bf memang luas..he got a job offer at SYABAS and HITACHI..my mom keep saying that Allah bagi rezeki coz he’s seriuos in getting married next year..my bf has changed a lot..so i hope so..amin..hehe…now, we are deciding which job offer is better for our future… u know what my dad said that got me from happy to worried? "along will be seeing a lot of factory ladies on work duties if he chooses hitachi, and what if they fall in love with him and bomoh him?"… that got me seriuosly worried and darn jelouse!…but i try to be a sporting gf and i tend to keep that way(aslong as it doesnt involve girls that i feel competant of..haha).. i know how my mangan got some of my girl friends in matrics to gain a secret crush on him(friends, you know who u are:)..hehe…dont worry, im ok..mangan is mine anyway and i tend to hold it that way..).. oh my.. i just hope.. that nothing bad comes between us…amin..i just have to trust him…he believes in me and loves me so much, so i just have to do that too… i have no choice…
4.You know… i made this friends list… i have hundreds of aquintance, 80++ friends, 30++ intimate friends not counting the ones i lost touch of, a supportive family, a commited bf, and i still think of 16 bad apples that i hate?y is that so?its hard to forgive and forget. how much i try to be nice and forgive… the 16 bad apples will always ruin my day….
5.you know….life is so short…a few nights ago, i looked at my moms face..eaten away by age…one time ago, she seemed so big, now she’s small…she now has wrinkles and white hair..she has a whole history before her….one day.. without knowing it.. i’ll be having nightmare of wrinkles and aging effects…i wont be young forever…a question i frequently ask myslef.. will i succeed in taking care of my hubby and make sure my kids not only succeed in their studies but also as a muslim?…can i handle it? Only Allah knows…reminds me of what my x-boss daughter told me…"i dont believe in marriage and dont intend in marrying"..its sad u know..how kids tend to get trauma from their parents mistakes…something good they accept it as burden…..i hope she finds a good man to show her how much marriage is a good responsibility in life…if it isnt somthing good….bet that no one would think marriage is pure as silk…
today… the morning i had was full of confusion..since the teachers time table dirombak semula.. i had to just go in and out of classes… having the stereotype that back classes are just too much to handle.. i just went in each class with a smile and a pray that i wont need to leave with a heavy heart… The kids eagerly to know me as a new teacher, made me remember my schoolhood.. writing some questions on the black board and keen on walking from one pupil to one pupil teaching them how to divide and calculate…i didnt care what they brought at school or what they ate in class…all i wanted them is to succeed in their subject i was teaching… thank Allah, eventhough im teaching mostly form 4 and 5 back classes, it wasnt hard making them hear what i was teaching…lagi2 i dont intend of getting angry and raising my voice in class…their laughter and teasing was funny..i really wanted to teach them well… being a teacher is a total new story… just passing a student, u get greated..well.. i used to do that i thought…the teachers you used to call cigku, u now call kak…ur place is in the teachers room…ur hands stink of chalk..u get into class and the naughty ones teases you…its a matter of wits to get them to do lessons..i get lost at school just by finding classrooms :)haha…funny…but i love it.. i love kids… Its sad you know… i ws just getting fond of some students though… next week my time table will be changed again…but well… nevermind..my positive intensions will come along with me….im dead beat coming back from school, but i get happy dreams of my students…i love them all….:)
coming home, i continue my day developing a management system that managing jobsheets, quotations and inventory…finished the inventory and nearly finishing jobsheets… working at a software house before this has sharpened my programming sense and logic…this months, masters scholarship programme is coming out. hope i get a shot for it… really want it badly…..huhu.. if im lucky, i’ll be sponsered going for masters in england or australia.but… if im getting married next year, i might just have to sacrifice and study in malaysia…hehe… apalah… belom lagi kawin tapi dah plan macam2…hehe..thats me:P
waking up before at 6 to go to school..again?hehe….
