TeeMs~Journal

just had a chat with ms. darrel…she was holding alvins phone…im shocked and sad… the thought of alvin lying helplessless is depressing… alvin is a jolly and such a nice fellow, always there to sacrifice himself helping others with a smile… hope he gets well soon…remembered last week he wanted to chat with me but i had class….that was friday… sunday…he was admitted to hospital….im sad you know…i really liked him…such a memoriable person to remember…well…after searching wikipedia…now i know what disease he’s suffering from….

Meningitis is the inflammation of the protective membranes covering the central nervous system, known collectively as the meninges. Meningitis may develop in response to a number of causes, most prominently bacteria, viruses and other infectious agents, but also physical injury, cancer,
or certain drugs. While some forms of meningitis are mild and resolve
on their own, meningitis is a potentially serious condition owing to
the proximity of the inflammation to the brain and spinal cord. The
potential for serious neurological damage or even death necessitates
prompt medical attention and evaluation. Infectious meningitis, the
most common form, is typically treated with antibiotics and requires close observation. Some forms of meningitis (such as those associated with meningococcus, mumps virus or pneumococcus infections) may be prevented with immunization.

yesterday…online skype and abg was online…we didnt talk much on skype call…i was busy writing a speech to present next monday..and he was enjoying himself singing a song he dedicated to me…at first…thought that the song was a normal ‘this song lyric isnt meant for you, but i like it so im still giving it to u’ type..so yeah..i didnt feel much…when i finished downloading the song he sent and played it…i blushed… everything fell into place….today im listening to it over and over again..not coz i like the song beat..but i ike the lyrics…sometimes….my relationship surprises me… my relationship was hard at first…for 6 years i struggled a lot and we ended up many wrong situations coz there wasnt much 2 way communication…it pays to be always motivated and listening to your heart….the title ‘batu’ which i always tease him isnt as correct as i thought…people can change maybe my ‘batu’…is eventually sparkling into a diamond

Song / Lagu : Chantek - Altimet Feat Adeep (Fabulous Cats)

Lyrics / Lirik Chantek :

Hey wanita
Gembira dapat berjumpa
Teringat kembali kali pertama kita bersua
Ingat bila kita bersepatu serupa
Tak lama dahulu jangan kau kata kau dah lupa

Kau bersama kawan-kawan muda yang nyata
Kau paling menyerlah di antara mereka
Rambut hitam warna cokelat anak mata
Membuat aku kurang fasih bila bicara

Apakata kita ambil sedikit masa
Untuk mengenali sesama kita dengan lanjutnya
Dan jika kau rasa apa yang ku rasa
Ayuh kita ke bab kedua dan seterusnya

Chantek
Dirimu buat ku tertarik
Menghilang segala prasangka
Di jiwa
Ohh chantek
Sungguh aku cinta kamu

Dia
Pandai menjaga hati ayah dan ibunya
Kelakuannya sama dengan orang tuaku juga
Dia
Bisa cipta yg gula dari yang cuka
Pandai menukar yg duka kepada suka
Dia
Bijak mengatur acara dan juga masa
Cekap memasak garam gula secukup rasa
Dia
Pandai menjaga harta dan juga duitnya
Tetap anggun tanpa mendedahkan kulitnya
Dia
Setia pada Yang Esa satu-satunya
Memenuhi tanggungjawab 5 waktunya
Dia
Punya tempat dalam rancangan yg ku rangka
Tak usah lengah
Ayuh kita berumah tangga

Chantek
Sechantek suria menyinar
Seindah bunga yang di taman..mekar
Chantek
Dirimu buat ku tertarik
Menghilang segala prasangka
Di jiwa
Oohhh chantekk
Sungguh aku cinta kamu

Aku
Melihat kita bersama di hari tua
Dia
Masih satu tiada empat tiga atau dua
Dan walaupun kau sudah kepudaran rupa
Kau tetap cantik padaku aku tak lupa
Kita bersama di anjung luangkan masa
Kewangan kita merdeka mampu bersara
Hasil usaha kita dari masa dahulu
Cukup untuk mengisi perut anak dan cucu
Hidup santai tak perlu terburu-buru
Punya masa kerja ibadah dan juga ilmu
Anak kita dan ayahya semua sebulu
Aku bilang kau chantek dan mereka setuju

Chantek
Sechantek suria menyinar
Seindah bunga yang di taman..mekar
Chantek
Dirimu buat ku tertarik
Menghilang segala prasangka di jiwa
Ohh chantek
Sungguh aku cinta kamu

akhirnya…semalam…siaplah my little booklet menjawab 13 bab psikologi…hancur buku tpaksa keluarkan bahagian soalan. hehe…u know…working in a team of friends that want success is a nice feeling.we all have one objective and that is to all succeed together. the nice memory yesterday where friends offered help in lending their answers was nice… its been a long time since i was offered help in something i was trying to struggle to be independent in…today too…we had  quiz…it also nice being called by people you know to sit by them.. we brainstormed the ideas..it pays to make friends with everyone….hehe…we have 3 study weeks and a exam week left. how fast time flies when ur busy and enjoying urself…my love my housemates and friends here…couldnt feel nicer…

have you ever been praised for something that u haven’t thought about yourself? yesterday…during physiology..during presentation time… i was suddenly complimented on my pedagogy class teaching last week by some friends..they said i was soft spoken, firm and they were entertained by my teaching. they complimented i had a motherly way of gaining attention.when the word was out, i was asked for a copy of my teaching from yan, my KUSTEM IT junior who also was enrolling in DPLI wid me..shocking though…didnt feel i deserve this attention over nothing…sadly…i havent got a copy yet, maybe tomorrow…but then, being a shy person, i couldnt take the situation…oh my, i really am not ready to accept surprised praises like this.my face felt like it was burning with shyness..my boyfriend is so proud of me..maybe i am suppose to be an educator?…hope that if they are right..InsyaAllah..i will be able to play an important role in seeing my students succeed

yesterday was a my bday…and im very touched at the wishes i get and knowing that i still stand in the hearts of people…

other than wished, presents, i also had a meaningful lesson that i wont forget too… i felt like an idiot for putting my brains behind me…now i have found a solution thanks to the internet and advices from readers all over the world.i promise will think before ending up like an absolute moron again.

last week i did my pedagogi presentation. my group of 3 had to teach a class and our teaching ws recorded for viewing.we got an A with NO bad comments..this is just unusual.y? dr. nasir said that we know how to handle kids.haha…shows i can become a good teacher lalalalala

today wanto talk about experience…did u ever have an experience u just want to forget? something that demotivates u? i have…alot…but i always try to remmber the good experience that God has given me 80% in my life..i am not going to let 20% turn me down…im glad im over the bad experience and living my life the way i want it to be…

everyone has a lot of different experience..mostly the experience develops the person we are…if we obviously do bad, we shouldnt pin point to others..because its us,we ourselves decide what we want…psychologist claims personality is designed into 3 main areas, id, superego and ego…id is our unacceptable behavior and more related to psychosexual. superego is our conscious mind..that hold down our id and  makes  us think rationally base on experience. ego is the connection between superego and id… well… from this… its us who decide how big our superego is…we decide if we  want to do good or evil..hehe..sounds like a comic strip suddenly…

we make our superego…so friends… make sure our superego is strong enough to make us a good person….take care of ourselves and learn ur lesson wisely. dont end up like an idiot like  me yesterday…haha

ive been observing all types of behavior and attitude.its a free world =) i like psychology and read a lot in terms of learning about myself..
well..
let me tell you a story of Sally…Sally…as chatty as she is… seems nice…of course…one thing bout this sally is that when she’s alone… she’s no one…doesnt talk much..polite…Sally, suprisly would find and conquer a mate..something like a parasite..someone who she could be with and feast on..hear her demands and follow..maybe make her feel comfortable… she would make her mate her ‘house’..no one must take her ‘house’…her house is her a source of strength and comfort.. when she finds her house..then hell breaks loose…she becomes very bold,noisy, disrespectful and chatty..sometimes too overacting and emotional…somehow…this sally feels so big she doesnt understand tolerance and talks badly to others over small matters, so immature..but then.. suprisingly…. when her ‘house’ isnt there to bring her comfort..she becomes timid and shy as a mouse…. whats up with this girl??? Sally doesn’t know that her classmates are feeling ashamed with her overacting attitude sometimes but arent admitting to save her face eventhough they feel hurt…so the moral of the story…Sally must change and be more polite and careful with others feelings…ok..criter ni xder kaitan ngan hidup atau mati…just a story untuk hiburan…something i picked up and wrote to waste a bit of time…take care!

Morning everyone…

This morning woke up from a call from someone special… thought it was my alarm going off at first..suprised to find it was a call..we had a
little conflict 2 nights ago and got back together last night… and i
also learnt something from this…you know girls.. men are less sensitive to
surroundings compared to women… but when women get upset..then men understand their wrong doings and remember not to do it again…am i right or wrong? men? any backing up to do?so alls well ends well… after a fight..i unintentionally made him miss me even more..you know guys…we ladies just want to feel they we needed and special:)… (this is a special tip for men out there)..makes me ponder upon my relationship life(im smiling here)…and i remember a story i fadingly remember…makes me want to write a poem all of a sudden…

this is something for you guys….a poem i wrote for those with a heart for art..

” a journey of true love is a walk through the meadow…

in search of that one true daffodil of serenity…

pass one by one the trail leads you through…

but neither one contented by heart purely…

the other is better you heart sinks in…

in hope to find the best among the best….

but the further you walk…the lesser they get…

and once you fall with vague and hunger…

no more they will seek and content you any longer….”

this poem im writing is reflecting to how our daily life is…we rush
and try catch whats best in front of us…when we see a better one we
catch that…we as humans always aim for perfection… but….when we
can never look back… and our hearts are full of greed… we let go
the things that are important to us…just to get what we think is much
more precious… and in the end… we end up with nothing….so
fellas… its ok to aim high… but appreciate what we got now…coz
what we got now can become the most precious thing on earth one day in
our future…

farewell… got class at 10… taker !..adios..

first of all…Tahniah buat boss, a.k.a Mohd Syazwan sebab dah bjaya jumpa mrs. right dia .cik faiza first time went to a wedding at night… and suddenly being called out infront of the guest for a speech was a suprise… gelabah pun ada…anyhow… may u guys enjoy ur couple lives until years and years to come….

rushed back to tanjung malim this morning…sempatlah punggah barang masuk bilik sebelum ke kelas pentaksiran…. ” A heart willows at the feeling of not a whole but one”….after the class… jumpa bina…she wanted to have lunch before she leaves for KL..oh well… i do have one matriculation friend that i often meet…yg lain2 semua bz ngan hidup masing2…hope we all can meet one day…

today made some new friends… isma, fatimah, idea, mimi and a girl in pink…forgot to ask her name after her act kindness..will ask one day soon..walking home from class…fatimah told me that yus knows bout this blog..typed from a search engine…waahllaaauu….didnt know my blog was sooooo unprivate.??!!?? terkejutlah jap….huhu… ingatkan those under my friends list are the only ones that can read me.haha…now everyone knows im getting married…jatuh saham jap…xperla…fateema… u are a positive thinker..you see light from darkness… yg penting kejujuran… im not ashamed if people are reading my personal life in my blog…bacala klau nak baca..klau nak kutuk..suka atila kan..xbaik kutuk2 pun.dosa….sapa suh baca?sapa suh carik penyakit?..my life is to be shared..somehow.. this is the only proof to the whole world that i exist on earth..coz i know one day i’ll have to face death like everyone will…its also a feeling of give n take… i like reading other people’s blogs and learning what matters to them..so writing here is an act of repaying sources..

” Morning woke up at 5.50am… solat tahajud as extra pahala..tber2 rasa cam kesian.. i was suppose to catch the bus at 8am to KL… but then… i kinda gave hope to my housemates that i’ll cook today…part of me wanted to look away coz i knew that they all are grownups to look after themselves…but then…i still felt a pang of guilt coz i knew that they wouldnt cook n i didnt like the idea of them eating maggi or buying food at the kafeteria after i got food poisening a few days ago.(well..until the degree students starts there classes..im not keen on them eating below)..i fought wid myself for half an hour before i  went and started cooking fried mee..kakna joined in…so breakfast was served and i rushed  to get ready for my day out in KL”

‘’strangers can be scary and nice…depends on which stranger you find…i didnt know the heart of KL that much so was kind of having goosebumps…i didnt want to get lost..i couldnt get lost…just as the bus reached pasar seni(someplace im so familier of)…i got off and was guided to KL Central wid the help of strangers…had a nice day wid Abg walking around Masjid India n Sogo looking for barang hantaran..still cant believe im marrying him you know…shopping is a remedy…i love shopping but kind of push that erge down..inflasi sifar..hehe…bought prezzy’s for abang’s and my little sis…hope they like it…didnt get time to buy kakna her McD double cheese burger..so making it up by driving her to eat tonite…at least i cant leave her starving…hehe…sometimes i also startle myself on how much i care for those around me…hope that when i need it, they’ll still be beside me…had some heartbreaks wid friends before…so hoping that the friends i choose to love…will continue loving me back whatever happens…awww…im getting soft…well..alls well ends well..im back at my desk in my room…safe n sound…cant wait to finish studies…taaaa”